This time....

This time of year is hard for me, and for many reasons.  Its hard because money is always tight, but I can handle that and life goes on.  My kids may not get all that they want or what I want them to get but we make it through and we are blessed.  Bills seem to stack up and that seems to take away from the christmas spirit and make it hard to remember the real reason why we celebrate the birth of ou Savior.  I try to put things up that help me remember but sometimes I dont want that reminder because I want to be mad and feel sorry for myself.

Another reason this month is so hard is because it is the same month that I lost or miscarried twins 19 years ago.   I was four months along and I started bleeding as I was out christmas shopping.  It was pretty scary for me not having been pregnant before.  I was put on complete bed rest and put on meds to stop the contractions.  When I went in to the Doctor for a  check on the babies there were no heart beats.   They had died.  All I could do was wait for my body to finish the labor and have them.  I had one at home and one at the hospital.  They were tiny, I could hold them in the palm of my hand.  I  have a wondeful doctor that took my hand and explained that Heavenly Father had a plan for them and that they did not need to come at this time.  It is harder some years to deal with this than others and this year it is hard. 

I went on to have a Beautiful Baby Girl two years later and she was born the day after Christmas.  Labor was long and hard but she eventually got here.  I had to have an emergecny c-section.   I am so thankful that Heavenly Father granted the gift of two more babies after her.  I didnt have them naturally.  I had to have them by c-section.  It is a joke between my husband and I that neither one of us "know nothing about birthing no babies"  (Gone with the Wind). 

Even though things are hard for me right now I know Heavenly Father has a plan for me and I will be able to hold my babies in my arms and raise them later.  I have Three wonderful kids and an Awesome husband who puts up with ranting and crying when I have my breakdowns each december.   

Well I am off with my Three wonderful blessings to do some christmas shopping.  I hope they can get along and not fight and we can have a good day just being together.  Haha  ya right!  We will see how long that lasts. hehe.

Annual Gingerbread House Making

Warning Picture Overload.....

  By the smiles that were on their faces I think everyone had fun! 

My Full plate

Today has started out rough.  A lot is catching up with me.  The only way I can describe it is that my plate is full and people and circumstances keep piling things on it.  I am not hungry and would rather leave the table that this plate in on. But I have  sit up and eat what is dished out and I am mad that I have to eat every last bite.  I am at the point of all I can do is sit and look at it and cry.  I have tried eating one bite at a time but things are not working out that way.  I know we all need to eat things we don't like but I feel like I have eaten enough of those things to last me for a while.  Some of the things I have to eat I have chosen and I can handle that, I made the choice to put that on my plate.  I know things will work out in the end and that my plate will be empty of these things and I will get a dessert plate handed to me.  Sometime in life we don't get to eat dessert first and we have to eat the gross nasty food that has been handed to us.  Hopefully I can handle the gross stuff and get it over with so I can get on to the dessert. 

H. Family Kid pics

What a Day....

 On ThanksGiving Day we celebrated twice.  We started with lunch at My Sister's house with my family, and then later on that day in Glendale with my Husbands family.  It was wonderful to see family and spend time with them. Had a good time and can't wait till next year:) 

We also got to celebrate this little mans birthday too!   We had fun after dinner singing Happy Birthday, blowing out his number 7 candle, and opening gifts.

Skadester got an Iron Man watch and was shown by his Uncle Sven how to tell time on the watch. (not digital).   Bubba made him a red velevet cake with a Transformers face on top.  He was happy with that.

The present Skadester is most happy about is getting the Buzz Lightyear.  He has played with it and slept with it ever since his birthday.  We had a good day and I think Skaderster had and even better one that we did:)